The transition meeting was okay! It was me, my mum, my CAMHS psychiatrist and my new one from AMHS(? I think that’s the service I’m gonna be with). My social worker didn’t bother turning up, smh. 
It was just loads of questions really from the new psych, which were alright although he interrupted and misunderstood me a few times so I feel like he’s got the wrong idea about a number of things. Overall he seems nice and alright to work with. 
He’s going to make sure I get a psychologist within roughly the next month, and a key worker as well. It’s moving quicker than I thought, which is good. Mostly. 

I have my first meeting today for my transition to adult mental health services. I think I’m really nervous, but I’m not at the same time. I don’t really know.
I am pissed off that my cramps have come on really badly today, so I probably won’t be able to pay enough attention in the meeting, and I might end up doubled over in my seat. 
Better take a tablet and hope for the best, I guess. 

~theme updates~
❀ changed autoplay music
    it’s now two songs by tycho (clicky clicky they’re really cool i promise)
❀ changed sidebar image
    it’s a dumb thing i did in gimp 2 in a few minutes and it’s adorbs sh

If you struggle with self-care and see this, stop what you’re doing


  • Have you eaten in the last 4ish hours?
  • Have you had something to drink today?
  • Can you have something, even if just milk or water or cup’o’noodles or toast with something yummy on it, if you haven’t, please? 
  • If you have any injuries, can you please take care of them for me
  • Also please take any meds if you should and haven’t, yet?

Whatever you have or haven’t done today just know you’re super strong and I am so proud of you

Okay you can go back to blogging now~ <3

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Upd8 post coming later but for now I must tell you I have been out and bought some gorgeous lingerie and I am so pleased uvu

Sorry I’ve not posted much the last few days
Your regular blogging schedule will resume when I have some energy that’s not being spent on paying attention to small children
(p.s. I still adore them anyway, little cherubs that they are)

*marry you by bruno mars plays in the distance*

(Source: fight--my--demons)

1) You are allowed to take up space. You are a human.

2) You are allowed to have a voice.

3) You are allowed to leave whenever you feel unsafe or uncomfortable.

4) You deserve more than someone who doesn’t know how to respect you.

5) You are allowed to put your own needs first.

6) You are allowed to love yourself.

6:11 p.m. (Six reminders for bad times)

(Source: expresswithsilence, via highanxietiessupport)

Had my first day of work experience today, it was great! The learning mentor I’m shadowing is so nice, like I knew her anyway but she’s nice to hang around with in the workplace as well, and she explained a bunch of key terms and concepts to me. She’s got a massive cupboard stuffed with relevant books and I’m allowed to borrow whichever ones I want as well!
I also got to do some assisted reading with a little year 3 girl and she’s so sweet! I get to take her out of class every day this week now and hopefully we’ll have finished her book by the end of it :o)
I went and helped out in her class as well and the kids are so sweet. They call me “Miss Ellie” :’)
Whenever the learning mentor has a confidential meeting now I get to go and help out in their class again. It’s really fun! I’m sure it’ll get wearing after a while haha, but they’re sweet kids and I can put up with it ;)

Had a lovely day with Molly and her new dog Lexi, who is literally the friendliest lil pupster I have ever met! She came up and started licking me straight away and I petted her loads and gave her a belly rub and awh she’s so lovely :o) 
We went and took her for a walk to Molly’s favourite place, which is a pond at a local nature reserve. It was so hot today, it was lovely to get out and about to somewhere nice. There were damsel flies everywhere and they were so beautiful. We chatted and caught up and played with Lex and it was just so perfect. 
The lead was really flimsy though, and Lexi chewed through it, it was literally only in her mouth about 5 seconds! Then when Molly tried to grab her harness she thought it was a game and ran off, kept looking back every few metres - looking back it was hilarious. Fortunately Molly managed to grab her and I caught up wheezing and panting after a moment haha. We took it in turns to carry her home, she’s a heavy lump but an adorable one :’)
We spent the rest of the day watching Bob’s Burgers and playing with the rats - one of them might be pregnant again :o - and just relaxing. 
The whole day was just so wonderful! Aaaaah