Little bit proud that I didn’t feel the need to edit this pic to buggery and I’m just posting it as-is.
Self-acceptance aw yeah ξ(*￣◡￣*)§
I’m starting an art project focusing on intimacy between humans, the desire to be as close as possible, and to expose your most vulnerable parts to each other, and I could do with some quotes, references, and inspiration, so with that in mind -
If you’ve ever written or received a love letter, a poem, or if there is any quote that really sticks with you, please submit a few lines from them to me
It would be much appreciated even if you don’t have anything like that to submit if you would reblog this to spread the word! Thanks :o)
The home visit was pretty good, my new care coordinator and CPN are really nice! Except they arrived half an hour early, and I wouldn’t like to think it was on purpose but let’s be honest - it probably was. Idk what else to say about it really. I look forward to working with them (although apparently the care coordinator might be being transferred so I might not have her?? I’m cursed I s2g). Mom cried a bit after they went because they mentioned my suicide attempts and stuff, but she’s okay now.
Feelin a bit better now, I dunno though, it’s all a difficult situation, and I know I can’t cope with this for much longer
In other news my new care coordinator and CPN are coming for a home visit tomorrow, it’ll be the first time I meet them and I’m a bit terrified but also pleased
I just cannot live with this anymore, I can’t deal with a mother like this, and I’m just. So. Fucking. Tired. And I’m too tired to explain and I don’t want to think about any of this anymore and I feel like I’m gonna cry but I don’t have the fucking energy and I just want to fall asleep and never wake up
Don’t you dare
For someone else’s comfort -
Do not become small
For people who refuse to grow.
This post is basically gonna be a journal entry on all the stuff I haven’t posted about lately, mainly for personal reference.
The transition meeting was okay! It was me, my mum, my CAMHS psychiatrist and my new one from AMHS(? I think that’s the service I’m gonna be with). My social worker didn’t bother turning up, smh.
It was just loads of questions really from the new psych, which were alright although he interrupted and misunderstood me a few times so I feel like he’s got the wrong idea about a number of things. Overall he seems nice and alright to work with.
He’s going to make sure I get a psychologist within roughly the next month, and a key worker as well. It’s moving quicker than I thought, which is good. Mostly.
I have my first meeting today for my transition to adult mental health services. I think I’m really nervous, but I’m not at the same time. I don’t really know.
I am pissed off that my cramps have come on really badly today, so I probably won’t be able to pay enough attention in the meeting, and I might end up doubled over in my seat.
Better take a tablet and hope for the best, I guess.